Where is Pat?

I have lots of things in my mind, but everything is like a set of puzzels, i need time to organise. If you think what I write does not make any sense, just forgive me...



The passion of coming back to my own country is becoming less and lesser. Before that, it was the family and friends to bring me home, but now... nothing! There's nothing I can be reluctant to stay. Can you imagine that there's no single person to call you out when you were dreaming of chilling out with heaps of frens before you came back from somewhere afar? My hp is totally dead for almost 10 days besides my family calls! How pathetic is that!! Or maybe it is me should reflect on myself, that do I have any fren? There were several best friends that I can always named of, but now, I am not really sure I still can do that again... I realised that all my frens have their own life, I am the only one DO　NOT HAS A LIFE!! Seeing everyone is enjoying their life, im happy yet sad. I am sad coz Im not their "first choice" when they go out to play. I know it sounds a bit selfishness, but who do not need attention?! I need someone who has a same life as me, the one who is caring and loving me, everyday miss me and think of me. I can swear I do really need all this now! To cure all my moodiness and boredom!



Everyone has their own new year resolution, but I don't... Coz what for if everyday is the same day. There's no suprise, no excitement and no expectation! I need something to spice up my life! I think I need counsellor...



I have more things to complaint about... but I am tired now, just off to bed and perhaps have a better day tomorrow.