如果的事

歌手：范玮琪 张韶涵 专辑：一比一

我想过一件事
不是坏的事
一直对自己坚持
爱情的意思
像风没有理由
轻轻吹着走
谁爱谁没有
所谓的对与错
不管时间
说着我们在一起有多坎坷
我不敢去证实
爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持
也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很放肆
我很不服
我还在想着那件事
如果你已经不能控制
每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影
听我爱的cd
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉
为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信
这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事
我只要你一件如果的事
我会奋不顾身地去爱你

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Bizzy recommended me a song today, he said this song reflect my situation now.
Ya, only if.. there's a lot of if, everything will happen if only... The "IF" will be just a "IF" when you do not take any action about it. The "If" gives us a lot of imagination and curiousness...

There is a "If" haunting me now...

When I'm waiting at the bus station, i'm thinking of "if"
When I'm having my meals, i'm thinking of "if"
When I'm taking my shower, i'm thinking of "if"
When I'm doing my assignment, i'm thinking of "if"
When I'm sitting in front of the computer, i'm thinking of "if"
When I'm talking on the phone, i'm thinking of "if"
When I'm walking, i'm thinking of "if"
When I'm standing, i'm thinking of "if"

If you are also waiting for my phone call, as what i'm thinking of your "if"
If you are also waiting for my message, as what i'm thinking of your "if"
If you are also wanting to see my cutie face, as what i'm thinking of your "if"
If you are also having the same thought, as what i'm thinking of your "if"
If you are also thinking that things will be better, as what i'm thinking of your "if"
If you are also missing me so deeply, as what i'm thinking of your "if"
If you are also supposing that I should be the one to take the first move, as what i'm thinking of your "if"...

If only you tell me the "IF"s in your mind, all the "IF"s may be came true. Why don't you just follow your instinct and tell me what do you feel, straight away? I don't know how long I can wait for the "If" to realize, do I have the endurance to wait for it?

i can't help it!! what more do u wan!!

Geeeeeeiizzz... being nag and fussiness are my personalities, coz what Im doing is trying to make things better. I know what I've done is annoyed by some people. But what I can say is just SORRY, THAT'S ME!! You criticise everything Im doing in a very harsh way, maybe you think you just don't mean it, but what I think is you did not care about my feeling when you said all that "jokes". I know it's very irriteted if someone keeps preaching you, but it is just because I care about you and everyone involved. It is a huge responsibility to prepare meals for more than 15 people, that's why Im so fussy about everything. I know you'll say im just bullshitting and things that I said are not facts, but when u see this, this and this, you'll know Im actually care of your safety, your life. You said if you don't have any serious illness for the past 20 more years, but you never think that it is because that past 20 more years was your mother who was taking care of your meals. I know how to do things is because my mommy teach me the right way to do it. I was just telling you guys what I know from my mom.

However, the main point is, I felt so upset and disappointed when you kept taking the issue as "jokes". It doesn't mean that Im short fuse, I did think it's fine at the first place. I really don't mind people prank at me, but what you did is too much, I can't take it anymore, so I pissed. I feel terrible when I did that to you too, I should have controlled my temper. I donno what to do now... Do I have to change?

Ya, after I talked with Max on the phone, he said I should have went to Melbourne for my study, then I don't have to deal with all these problem. Even so, at least he will be there for me. Or I should have went to Taiwan, so my dear will be there for me too... Miss you guys a lot!!

Happy news!!

When I just began to do my reading, I saw my cousin Keng Khai's msn said he's heading to UK tomorrow! Oh ya, he is going to his next stage of studying journey, feel so happy and proud of him! Gampate Keng Khai!

After that I got 2, oh no, it's 3 good news from Keng Khai... My eldest cousin sister, Da Jie gave birth to another baby BOY!! My another 2 cousins, Su Kuan Jie Jie and Su Fang Jie Jie both are pregnant!!!!! OH MY GOSH!! I wish Im there to share their happiness together! I really wish Im there! I hope when I go back end of the year, all my nephews or nieces are born, so I can play with them, I love kids so so so so much!! Cuties, wait for me! I'll be back soon!!

Now I really realise I miss a lot of good stuffs in Penang, not just the food, the most important is my family... My Yeoh's families are so happening for the past 2 months, especially, Goh Jek and his children went back from UK, I can see they were having tons of fun there after Goh Jek told me how his children sucking all his money, hahahaha... Anyhow, the greatest thing is family gathering. For some people, family gathering maybe is a phobia to them, for me, it's the happiest moment ever. That's why I love Chinese New Year, coz almost every family member comes back. We can talk lots of stuffs, we talk ANYTHING, especially with my siblings.

OH NO!! I think I better to stop here, coz.. I START TO MISS HOME!! =(

delicious blackforrest pancake

Delicious Blackforrest Pancake

Finished my class kinda early, so went to the city, hanging around, then realised i still din take my lunch. Went to this restaurant, "PANCAKES at Carillon", ordered a blackforrest pancakes...



really so tempted, no doubt!! look at the next photo u'll know....


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now you see and now you don't ;P

::Malaysian Day::Jom BBQ::

::Malaysian Day::Jom BBQ::

sien saturday

A VERY SIEN SATURDAY NIGHT!

why

Why?

Why are you always bothering me?
Why cant you just leave me alone?
Why are you always appear when I starts to forget everything?
Why are you there when I starts having new hope in love again?
Why are you still here while I am waiting for my Mr. Right guy?
Why dont you know things cant ever be the same again?
Why cant you just disappear in my life, FOREVER?
Why, Why, Why??

Where is the FISH gone?

Where are the FISHES gone?

Sorry guys, been very busy these days, just finished 2 of my assignments past 2 days, hoorah~~~

Even I was busying, I still went for fishing on Saturday. It was my first time fishing for my whole life leh~ It was really having lots of fun! But.. I din catch ANY fish.. sorry Ian, I wasted all your baits, hehe.. Actually fishing is not really boring, it is full of excitement. Sometimes it will give you fake hope that you think you got the fish, but it is just the seaweed or bubble fish. Similar with our life, things always does not come out what you want it to be, but you still want to keep on trying, trying and trying. Am I loving to fish by now? I don't know, see whether next time I can catch any fish or not, haha.. Have to see how my "teacher" is going to teach me new skills and advice, and also my luck, :p

my brain

GOSH! My brain is not working!!! wait... Do I have a brain???? hehe...