Saturday, May 20, 2006

我 。极端。吗

感觉上
最近的自己
好极端



往往
对所有事情
都有很大的反应与意见



想得太多
看得多
听得多
说的
自然也多



每天的情绪
只会因琐碎事
而起伏不定
这样下去
心脏病
肯定离我不远



对自己的行为
有些反感
也许
朋友对我的举止
也感到讨厌



想控制
不能自拔
想继续?
死了罢!
只想到外
吸一口新鲜空气
把身体的乌烟瘴气一口吐出来



呼呼呼呼~~~~~

Guilty pleasure =__=

Since when was your last time treating yourself as a Princess/Prince? Went for late night shopping on Thursday. I supposed to buy milk, bread and some daily essentials ONLY. Haha... coz I have an hour and half for the shopping bus to pick us back to housing, then I decided to walk every aisle to spend my time since there was not much things to buy and do. It's not a smart decision anyway. I tend to buy all those junk food when I passed by.



First, I came to the chocolate section, the dark chocolate with roast almond bar which is my favourite is having a cheap price, then immediately put it into my trolley. Then walked to the chips section, Pringles "LIGHT sour cream & onion chips" started hailing me, telling me that 33% less fat won't harm on my weight.



*Devil: Buy lar, it's been ages you didn't eat pringles, just buy it! Don't think too much!!*


I admit, I am a loser on resisting Pringles temptation... means I bought it... *_* Gosh... all these will ruin my "NO JUNK" plan since I came back to Australia. When I actually put them in my trolley I was actually convincing myself that I should "reward" myself on the hard work I did in these few weeks, the so called "Guilty Pleasure".



Luckily when I came to cheese and ice-cream section, I was able to control myself... As a superb cheese-lover, I am proud of myself that I didn't buy any cheese product that day and I just had cheese for not more than 10 times after I am back! *pat on my shoulder* Good Job!



I really don have any idea why I like to drink fizzwater these days??? Walk the whole way to vending machine just for a blurdy small bottle of Fanta. Is it bcoz of winter is approaching??? People said it's normal in winter as people eat and drink more. I know I cant blame on the weatherman, but hell, just to ease my guilt.



I am really admire on those skinny people who can eat 2 times more than me and still in that perfact figure. So my "Angel & Devil" fight will not happen when buying all the food I love, especially CHEESE! I used to eat cheese everyday on the first year in Perth, the results... 4kg gained! T_T......



chocolate...... cheese...... buskin robbin...... KFC...... pringles...... pizza......

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Time flies...

Have you ever think that the time went so slow before you were below 18 years old?



After my 20th Birthday, the time is just like woshh... wooossshh.... like that! And now I'm mid-22! Oh Gosh... Now I realised it's nearly to mid year, but what actually did I gain? I can't exactly tell coz I don't really sure what I did... I've been slacking and wasting my time. Even people wasting time also know where they waste their time, but I don't know. It's like I don't know where I spent my money either, there's no record on it. I know and that's freak me out! I cant take back all the time. And I'm not sure how am I going to cope this... I feel like crying, just cry like a baby... But I know this won't help anything, so forget it.



For the next few weeks I'll be packed with my assigments and exams, can I overcome with all this mess after slacking over past whole semester?? Bless me please....



Now I feeling like singing Madonna's song, "Hung up".... "Time goes by.. so slowly.."